SafeSpeed wrote:
I really appreciate all the respect and concen that you are all offering. It is a great comfort to me in my (one of many) hour of need !
I really appreciate the money help too.
Glad to be of any help. Jazz will be setting up a monthly set amount from the spon/don thing we have.
(spon/don =sponsorship & donation. We set this up as a separate account. Regulars on the internet know we are a re large family - probably identified by bringing COAST and a hell of a lot them

guys to abusively cringing degrees into each post. Method in this. Family not all active posters - but lurk and put cash into this account .. usually pennies to pound based on how well we got point across .. or used smilies appropriately. As we tend to waffle a lot

- they fine us a few pennies for this and my wife usually gets "well hammered!"

Family usually top up as group as well. We seem to think this better than putting a coin in a tin or buying a ribbon or elastic wrist band somehow.
We used to put a decent-ish donation into Paul's Paypal account when we had accrued enough to put a three figure sum into all the good causes we support. We were about to make over this payment when Paul passed away. We channelled the first wave into your new account and propose to make a monthly tick over as we know we can make the funding from this spon/don account.
To all out there .. whatever your means .. I am sure you could afford to buy Claire a spray of flowers each month from the supermarkets/florists. Only don't send the £3 bunch of carnation buds.. send the cash. Collectively from all who supported Paul.. want to continue his legacy Wildy

is right. Dammit

she usually is - it does mount up collectively to a modestly decent amount based on the pledged support towards the fight back for common sense values - like real police and real driver training.... upping the standards.l
Oh sure we all know this means more tax to fund.. but what the heck.. I'd rather my cash paid over to the taxman deliver more than funding politically incorrect nonsenses.
safespeedv2 aka one very brave lady wrote:
(I have good & bad times at the moment, and miss him dreadfully, beat myself up for not just taking him to hospital, but to be wise after the event I know gets me no-where.)
Claire love ( heartfelt

to you)
Natural reactions. You told my wife Vrenchen that he was pale.. not quite himself but he assured you he was OK.
Claire .. I phoned him to talk about the "spinny" developments about three weeks beforehand. Paul sounded very tired to me at the time. He very stoically told me he felt fine but did need a rest.
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By concentrating on this and with your support, I hope to plough through, what people tell me is the worst stage - acceptance & loneliness.
Claire.. my sister Jazz is a "Samaritan" in spare time.. and why she has a conflict of time between School/MART (Manchester Against Road Tolls) Samaritan and Family duties.
She is on stand-by. Lurks on this site and she intends to call you anyway to help over this.
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I have his mailshot program waiting for the next PR. I hope that my rewording of the obitury was good and maybe could look at sending this - if I can get anything to go at all ?
I am sure it would have been.
Finally Claire..
Paul.. sigh.. he needed major heart surgery as I now understand. You could not have prevented the final attack .. nor could you have known so any more than Paul.
Claire.. please focus on the good memories. Remember him.. but please, please accept from me who may be a virologist but one who places folk on heart transplant list if the lurgy attacks the heart muscle and who has assisted in heart swap ops as a result.. there was nothing you or anyone else could have done here - especially from what you confided to my own wife.
I am saying to you that you have no need to "beat yourself up"
He was more poorly than he perhaps wanted to admit. Only natural on the internet and to yourself perhaps. A considerate man and missed.
You have our sincerest condolences.
Paul was unique and one really decent chap. Oh sure.. we know if you know something is obvious and the likes of the keyboard warriors out there cannot see this.. you become as tenacious as they are.
Both Wildy and me have been there.. got the proverbial T shirts.
I think Paul has the same T shirt.
Take care .. and even though you do not feel like celebrating the season of good will at the moment .. I will again wish you all the best and as much cheer as you can muster up here - and when me and my wife set off to attend Midnight Mass later.. you and Paul will be in our thoughts and prayers.
Thinking of you and willing you only warmest thoughts via this medium,
All our love to you
Ted and entire family .
